July will come and July will go.

If you remember, I said earlier my boat would be ready to launch in the month of July 2009. Well I'm here today telling you that its not going to happen. You see the thing is, that the wife and I are getting a divorce. I am not going to get into details but I have clearly lost my motivation. Because of the current situation with the house and with the housing market the way it is right now and for the kids we decided to live in the house legally separated. Not only that, we will be legally divorced and still be living in the same house. I live in the basement apartment and she lives upstairs. We can't afford to pay for the mortgage plus a separate place to live. When I get up to go to work I feel good and I can't wait to get there. But when I come home and walk through the front door I fall into this temporary depression. I can't shake it, I should just give up and quit, but every time I seriously think about it I keep thinking about all the hard work I've done, the hours I spent creating this blog and the vision of the dream I have of the boat when it is finished. I don't understand why I feel the way I do about this whole project. Its just a fucking piece of shit boat, I could find one to replace it a thousand times over. I think its that I hate giving up on my dream, my vision, my hard work. So right now I'm in the process of getting the boat and all my material packed up and put into storage until I have my own place where I can work on it. If you really sit down and think about it, what a fucking joke.